Today SUCKS. I don’t think this post will even attempt to salvage any potential goodness this Tuesday holds. So I’m sorry if this brings you down a notch.
Today’s theme is … TENDER TUESDAY.
Usually I want to turn my brooding tenderness into something a little more creative, like all great artists do. But I don’t feel like that today. It’s my blog and I’ll do what I want to. And I just want to vent.
Things are falling back into their old and WRONG places again. I’m trying hard to fight it. I mean, yeah, I have good things going on in my life (concerts and trips) and those are the things I need to focus on. But there are these evil, annoying, uncomfortable little things creeping back into my life. They are things I have done that I am not proud of, things I fear in myself, and things that I have no control over. They are things that I want so badly to avoid. But I can’t. Because history sticks to your feet. It follows you, annoys you, no matter how hard you try to wipe it away.
I feel like I am at a point (isn’t it funny how often I say this? But really, when aren’t we at a turning point in our lives? ahhhh getting philosophical…) where I can either accept my history and move past it or revert back to that version of myself who doesn’t deal with any of her own history.
I know which way I want to go and let’s hope that’s where I end up.
Sorry, this Tuesday still sucks.